Easier Said Than Done

Letting go. It's so much easier said than done. I think this is especially hard for most women when there is rejection involved. I think that we have probably all been there at some point in our lives. I know that I have and it can be pretty hurtful. For most of the years that I have dated, I have been the one to break things off with men. I have been the one to decide that I was no longer happy. I never really dealt with a lot of rejection within serious relationships. Don't take that the wrong way. I definitely went on first dates that never turned into second dates, because the guy didn't want one. I definitely wanted to go on a date with someone who didn't want to date me. I have been given a phone number to never have the guy answer or return my call. I have been rejected. Just never to the point where it hurt my heart enough to let it linger.

Some of you long-time followers might remember THIS story told by yours truly. Back then, I was still hurting. I was having a hard time letting go. Mostly, because it was the first time I had truly dealt with rejection and also, because this boy had found himself another lady friend. That's what hurt most. Seeing their picture together on FB as his profile picture. Reading FB status' about he and this girl. Seeing for the first time where he told her on FB that he loved her. These were things that in the time we were together, he never did with me. That can sting a little bit. It stung me to the point that I had to delete him as a FB friend and from my life. I still got a couple of messages from him saying that he was sad that we were no longer friends, but I have always ignored them.

I am happy with how things turned out for me now. At the time, I was hurting and for a while I had a hard time letting it go. I would often wonder what was so different about this new girl that I didn't have. Or why is she good enough and I am not? Now? She can have his sorry ass. Better her to put up with the crap than me. It makes me think, though...am I THAT girl now? The one that is now with the boy and someone else is hurting the way that I was? Are they dealing with that rejection that I had to deal with? In getting back together with the boy, it was never my intentions to hurt anyone. Actually, I waited for a long time, because I was afraid to hurt someone else's feelings. Sometimes, when you know what's right for you, a chance has to be taken. You have to take that leap of faith and hope that things turn out for the best.

I have not longed to be with "suit boy" for over a year now, but I have been trying to compartmentalize the rejection that I faced. I am finally at peace in the fact that I am not with "suit boy" anymore. It has taken me realizing that I might be "that girl" for someone else and that I never did it intentionally or just to be vicious and hurt someone else. I'm sure that the new girl in "suit boy's" life didn't either. You can't hate on someone for wanting to make themselves happy. I fully appreciate Matt and all that we have in our relationship at this point. Nothing in the world could make me regret that decision. Not being talked about, not being stared down, not hearing people's reservations about it....NOTHING. I am happy with my life.

"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."

"Everything Is Worth It"

Sometimes in life, you come across a quote that just "fits" what you are going through, ya know? I have had a rough time with a little minor drama of the girl kind. You know...just the basic stuff we have all been through. It has been enough to have my feelings hurt and to the point that I feel it is all being done to intentionally hurt me. Sarah posted two quotes recently that I could just really relate to.

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them." ~Marilyn Monroe

"Take chances, take a lot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up, and with whom, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. Say how you feel, always. Be you, and be okay with it." ~Unknown

Happy Monday, friends!

The Running Man

If you live in an apartment complex, then you often deal with crazies. I live in a pretty safe area and I have quiet neighbors. There aren't college kids partying all hours of the night. In fact, it's a party goin' on when the lady next door is vacuuming. That's the most noise I deal with. I love it where I live.

For a few days, I was getting up super early around 6 am to head to school early to get a few things done. When I leave my apartment, I drive through part of the complex until I get to the actual street. Several mornings in a row, I would see who I nicknamed "The Running Man" (TRM). He would be beside of his Lexus, facing the driver's side door. TRM would just be running in place. For quite sometime. I have slowed down considerably to watch him in amazement. TRM is an older gentleman and is Oriental and always dressed nicely, as if heading to work.

At first, I racked my brain...what is he doing? Is this some ritual? Wait...I know other Oriental people and none of them do this. I've been to freakin' Japan and there were no people running in place by their cars! The other day, I passed by and TRM was hopping back and forth and then proceeding to run in place. Why do you suppose this is? Why am I such a chicken and I will not stop to take a picture? Would that be considered rude? I just want to know what his purpose is for running in place before getting into his car. Do any of you have any ideas?

TOO FACED

When I came across this giveaway, I knew that I needed to participate and hopefully WIN!! Rarely do I ever participate in a giveaway. It has to be something tadiefor in order for me to do all the work involved. This giveaway by Megan at A Suitcase and Stilettos was one that I HAD to participate in. It's for my favorite make-up. TOO FACED!! I bought some of the eye shadow that she is giving away, but I have the Classic Eye Palette. I've been eyeing the Natural one, though! I also love LOVE the mascara that Too Faced makes. So, here's to hoping that I am a WINNER!

Stylin' and Profilin'

To completely accept this award you have to do these four things...

1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.

2. Share 7 things about yourself.

3. Award 10-15 blogs you feel deserve the award.

My pal, Bre over at Breezy in Bloom awarded me this Stylish Blogger Award. I am thankful to have met Bre through this blog world. She always has something nice to say to me and darn it, I wish she didn't live on the other side of the country, because I think we'd become good friends! Go check Bre out. She doesn't disappoint. Promise!

1. My friends and I had a sleepover this past Friday night. It was so much fun! Brings back good memories from my childhood. There was no "light as a feather, stiff as a board" or "Bloody Mary", however. We still had a blast! Eating, talking about people, watching movies. I couldn't ask for better pals.

2. I'm doing this post instead of doing my grad school homework. I'm the world's worst when it comes to procrastinating! I hate school. Hate.

3. I've never been that girl who has her future children's names picked out. But, my two cousins and I promised my Granny when we were little that whichever of us has a kid first, we will give them our Uncle's namesake. His name was Green. I never got to meet him and my Granny is no longer living, so this is a promise that I intend to keep. If I have a girl, I thought about Greenly.

4. I kinda can't stand it when someone puts up a profile picture on FB that is not of them. Dumb. Sorry if you do that. I think it's dumb...can you not find a picture of yourself that you think is decent enough to post?!

5. I reaaaaallly want to get into photography. I don't want to take pictures for money, I just want to learn more about how to take good pictures (Maybe my blog friend, Julia can help teach me, cause I just think she is great!). It's on my 30 Before 30 list to take at least 5 "frame worthy" photos. Right now, I have one...in my amatuer opinion. It was taken with my iphone in Chicago.

6. I am way stubborn. If someone hurts my feelings, I can just kinda be "done" with them. It takes a lot to get my feelings hurt, but once you do, I'm stubborn to forgive and rarely do I forget. It's not a good thing.

7. I was once really into going to the gym for Turbo Kick on Mondays. Now that I have grad school assignments due on Monday night and am usually finishing up more work for my Tuesday night class, I haven't gotten to go as regular. It makes me feel bad about myself and I desperately want to get back into going.

I'm gonna pass this award on to:
All of my lovely follwers. Anyone feel free to take it for yourselves! :) I've gotta get back to doing my homework and getting ready for school tomorrow. Don't forget to go check out Bre!

BTF

This post is special for two reasons. It's my 100th POST!! Happy Birthday, Blog! And, this post is dedicated to my BTF, Sarah, because it is her birthday today. BTF is our acronym for Best Teacher Friends. We came up with this when we first started teaching together and became close. I consider her so much more than this now. She is one of my closest friends. I have shared so much with her that I haven't shared with a lot of others in my life. I feel like I can talk to Sarah about any and everything and she will have no judgment against me. She has a huge, giving heart and I love her sense of humor. I call her my girlfriend, cause let's face it...it was just she and I for such a long time. I think many people started to wonder about us...She's also my kindergarten teaching buddy, blogging bestie and real life best friend. I consider her to be one of the people in my life that I could turn to if I ever needed anything. So, on this day, I wish you, my bestie, a very happy birthday! Love you so much and thank you for being a great friend to me over the past several years. I wouldn't trade our laughter, eating, and making fun of others for anything in the world. I hope that your day is special, because you sure do deserve it!

Now...on to our movie montage. It was SO hard to choose pictures. There were so many good ones that I wanted to include. 

So, here's to you, my BTF. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!



Thankful Thursday

I am linking up with Julia at Black Tag Diaries to let all of you lovelies know what I am Thankful for this Thursday.

1. I am thankful for this beautiful weather! I was afraid that I would make it back to BG from Houston and would have to deal with cold weather. That has not been the case!

2. I am thankful for the boyfriend. I'm in love, ladies. He tells me that he is, too. So happy. Without being too sappy...that's all I will say.

3. I am especially thankful for those who follow my blog and leave me such uplifting comments. Sometimes when I need to vent and I do it on here, you are the first ones to say something that makes me feel like I am not alone or that makes me smile. Thank you for that.

So, tell me...What are you thankful for on this beautiful Thursday?!